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Fighting Back with … What

On my commute this morning (Thursday 7 July 2016), I spontaneously decided to listen to the album “Declaration” by Welsh rock band The Alarm. Toward the end of the song “Blaze of Glory,” when lines from earlier in the ballad are being repeated, some of those lines stood out in my attention.

Fight back with love! No price is too high!

Yeah, written and performed by straight white guys, albeit straight white guys from Wales in the 1980s. Historical and societal contexts shouldn’t be dismissed.

As I heard those lines, I was reflecting on the two black men killed by police in as many days. And, those are just the ones I know about. For all I know, there could be more.

Fighting back with love has been a personal philosophy of mine for a very long time, probably going back to the early ’80s when I first heard this song. This was due, in part, to the fact that back then I lacked the physical strength to fight back in any other way. As I grew older and my Christian faith deepened, fighting back with love seemed the proper way to live the Golden Rule and the second half of the Great Commandment. But with all this violent oppression happening around me, I can’t help but think that a more “Satanic” approach might indeed be appropriate.

What would that look like? Second Amendment rights seem to be respected differently depending on the person with the gun. It has been alleged that both Mr. Castile and Mr. Sterling had guns. So what? Dylan Roof used a gun to kill nine people and he was apprehended live, put in a bulletproof vest, and taken for fast food. After he killed nine people. Simply bearing arms, real or not, can get one killed when one is a person of color, particularly if that person is male. As much I as consider joining Pink Pistols, I’m not a white, seemingly cis-male queer. My chances of being shot even while legally carrying will be much greater than my white, seemingly cis-male or trans-and-passing-for-cis-male peers.

How can we fight back with more than love and live to tell the tale? No price is too high? If we die, how can we continue the fight?

A Prayer to Antinoüs for the Victims of Pulse in Orlando, FL

Antinoüs,
your majesty, what happened? Why don’t they leave us alone? Why is
that when we express our loves in the same ways they do, they react
with revulsion and contempt? Why do they say we should be executed.
Why do some actually carry out these acts?

I know, Antinoüs
the Liberator, there are not any acceptable answers to my questions.
That this should happen during Pride month, reinforces the need for
our Pride events even as those events show to our would-be destroyers
where we can be found.

Antinoüs
the Healer, you and I both know that not all wounds heal. Grief can
be one such type of wound. And, I don’t want to heal. Not from
this, and not from the yearly repeating griefs of the Transgender Day
of Remembrance. If I heal from them, scar tissue will form over these
hurts and I could become desensitized to these horrors. Do lot let my
heart be hardened. Instead, let it soften. Let it be permeable to
these horrors. Give me the strength to absorb these acts of naked
terror so that I may be an agent of change and hope for those under
the Rainbow.

Ave, Antinoüs,
sovereign of the Beloved Dead!