Monday, 28 November 2016 (in response to this post)
To the first part of this question, I can answer definitely: I do still feel that I am Christo-Pagan. But the second part is an interesting thing. “Is Jesus calling [me] to be a priest for him?”
Have I ever asked Jesus if I could or should be a priest for him? Those who adhere to the idea of the Priesthood of All Believers would probably by saying, “You don’t need to ask him, he calls us all.” And if that is true, what is the purposes of pursuing ordination? (Or, as it says in a translation of the The Mind of Absolute Trust that I used to chant with a Soto Zen Buddhist sangha, “What reason for wisdom and holiness?”) Part of the reason I felt called to ministry was due to the way I heard the following question when I was rebaptized on 24 November 2013:
In this commitment will you do your best by GOD’s abundant grace, to continue to walk in the ways of love, to follow the teachings of Jesus about inclusion and justice, and to keep your heart wide open as possible to all that is good in this world?
When I heard Rev. Dr. Penny Nixon ask me that question, I knew I had to mean it when I responded, “I will, with the help of GOD.” And it was in that moment that I began my discernment process for seminary.
Although, it might be more accurate to say that I began again my discernment process for seminary. At various points in my life, from childhood clear through adulthood, I’ve considered becoming an ordained Christian clergyperson.
My coven held a Second Samhain on Friday, 18 November 2016, for those of us who couldn’t be present for the initial Samhain ritual. My primary ministry mentor was channeling (sometimes called “horsing”) various spirits and deities during the ritual. She had messages for me from Hecate, Melek Ta’us (the Peacock Angel, and quite the trickster), and Jesus. During this part of the ritual, I received a clear message that Jesus would indeed be willing to have me as a priest for him, but ultimately the decision was mine.
So, at this point I’m still a bit uncertain regarding how I want to proceed, but I’m leaning toward pursuing Christian ordination again. And more than ever before, I’m leaning toward the Progressive Christian Alliance. So at the very least, I’ll be revisiting their ordination information.