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Dedication and Antinoüs

One of the things that bothers me about the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (LBRP) is the Christian overtones to it. I know that might seem odd coming from a Christo-Pagan, but there it is. I’m still toying with the idea of writing one for the Tetrad++, and have begun work on one to my lord Antinoüs. The first step after reviewing the prayer card I have was to delve into The Syncretisms of Antinous by P. Sufenas Virius Lupus. I got as far as the dedication page and then I was in tears. The dedication is:

To the youthful suicides,
Bill Clayton, Asher Brown,
Tyler Clementi, Seth Walsh,
Justin Aaberg, Raymond Chase,
Billy Lucas, Cody J. Barker,
Victims of hatred due to a hostile culture;
May their families have strength and peace,
May their spirits have rest and freedom,
May their memories never depart from the earth.

Someone will gather
garlands of lamented names
and will lament more
the youth of dying men.

Reading that dedication, and weeping for those names knowing that more names have been added to the list of Youthful Suicides since this book was published in 2010, I knew that it was right and proper for me to write an Antinoan LBRP. I will do this for them, and for me.

Hail, hail Antinoüs! Hail, hail Antinoüs!
This is where life comes from! Hail, hail Antinoüs!

A Love Letter To Transgender People From A Transgender Priest – Queer Theology

A Love Letter To Transgender People From A Transgender Priest – Queer Theology:



I see you slink down in your seat and hope to disappear. I see you.

I see you facing the dread of back to school shopping. Longing to
wear dresses and colors and instead being forced to wear the drab slacks
and button downs. Because no one knows who you really are and you can’t
tell them yet. But I see you and I know you.

I see you the first time you tighten that tie around your neck and
breathe deeply gathering up the courage to walk out the front door. I
see you when you have the courage to leave. And I see you when you take
the tie off and go watch TV instead.

I see you struggling to find words (and clothes) to match the gender
you are because your gender doesn’t fit in a world that separates
everything out and quantifies it in categories. I see you defying those
categories and I see you worry because of it.

I see you google “dating a transgender person” and reading article
after article about how hard it is to love someone like you. I see you
close the browser and delete your dating profile.

I see you working three jobs and starting a GoFundMe to help pay for
your transition. I see you hustling to have enough money to eat. I see
you feeling beaten down by everything.

I see you when you face violence. All types of violence: physical, emotional, spiritual.

I also see you when you claim your identity. I see you for your first
shot, as you’re coming out of gender confirming surgery, as you buy
clothing that fits you for the first time.

I see you as you march, holding the transgender flag. I see you as you fight, fist up, for your right to exist.

I see you getting up out of that pew and leaving that unaffirming church never to return. I see you finding a new community that welcomes you with open arms.

I see you asserting your identity by insisting that people use your name and pronouns.

I see you finding someone who loves you for who you are and who realizes what a gift you are in their lives.

I see you existing. And surviving. And thriving.

I want you to know that you are seen and loved just as you are. I
want you to know that you are not a disruption, a burden, or a
too-expensive-cost, no matter what the president says. No matter what
your pastor says. No matter what your parent says. No matter what your
ex-partner says. These things are not true.

What is true is this:

God loves you not in spite of your transness but because of it. God
has gifted you with your unique and beautiful identity. And God loves
you because of your identity.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Whether you choose to
medically transition or don’t. Whether you are binary identified or
nonbinary. Whether you “pass” or not.

You are beautiful just as you are. In all of your various identities.

You are needed. You are celebrated. You are a gift.

You are lovable and worthy and strong.

You are amazing. You are seen.

You are loved.

God had no gender. God transcends gender. God has all genders.