by Rev. Gina Pond, original postedNovember 2010 on http://worthyadvisor.wordpress.com (now http://www.thisweekinheresy.com); updated January 2015
What do I mean by “Perfect Love and Perfect Trust”? In the Open Source Alexandrian initiation, “Perfect Love and Perfect Trust” are the passwords to get into the circle. When I was revising the initiation for our own use, I left these words in because I felt that it was one of the most important parts of the ritual. You are entering the circle with the expectation that you will be fully accepted as you are, now, at this point in time. There will be no ridicule, no embarrassment. You are loved as an equal. You are also entering the circle with the expectation that what is said there is sacred and confidential. That what happens in a given circle will not go past the boundaries of that circle, unless you allow it. You also enter with the expectation that you will get support and care as a member of the coven. Perfect love and perfect trust are really the foundations of being in a coven. Without it, the coven falls apart.
But this oath, this expectation, is what occurs in our coven. In our private rituals, we are safe, because we have made the agreement to do so.
This doesn’t always happen. There can be times where it isn’t, as in my former coven. The last few times I actually circled with them, it felt weird, as if I was in a washing machine that was unbalanced. It even felt as jarring. And it wasn’t just jarring for me, but for everyone in the circle. My former coven leader blamed me and his partner for this unbalance, but it was the mistrust and abuse that we got at his hands that was really the problem. I have felt this a few times since I’ve started circling and going to more pagan events in California, and I don’t go back to the circles that have felt that way.
Magick, the deep, personal growth type of magick, is a very intimate experience. There is a lot of magick I wouldn’t even consider doing without people I trust implicitly. There have been some public rituals that I’ve questioned because of the nature of magick involved. What bothers me is that a lot of people go into rituals expecting that all witches and pagans follow the Perfect Love and Perfect Trust rule. Especially in public rituals and open circles. But this isn’t always the case. What I’ve learned, though, is that when something doesn’t feel right, it’s time to leave. Sometimes you have to run. You don’t have to go back to circles that aren’t serving you, even if you’ve gotten initiation from them.
Perfect Love and Perfect Trust is a mutual agreement. If it is not returned, you are allowed to go. You are breaking no oaths and you are not betraying anyone by being true to yourself.