Antinoë Magdalene

Our Satan

barcofthebluebard:

His Infernal Majesty who reigns in hell
accursed is your name.
Your adversity come, our wills be one
with yours here on this Earth.
Give us the means to divine our needs
and to present challenge to those
who would dare challenge us.
Lead us forth into reason,
and guide us from naïveté.
For thine are the margins, and the logic,
and the shadows, for ever and ever.

After being schooled in my own arrogance last week, I think I have a better version now.

His Infernal Majesty who reigns in hell
accursed is your name.
Your adversity come, your will be one
with ours here on this Earth.
Give us the means to divine our needs
and present challenge to us
as we challenge others.
Lead us forth into reason,
and guide us from naïveté.
For thine are the margins, and the logic,
and the shadows, for ever and ever.

Questioning My Call

It’s Friday, 8 July 2016, and it’s been one hell of a week.As I reflect on yet more Black men killed by police officers, I find myself thinking thoughts unbecoming of a Christian. Doubly-so for one who feels called to ordained Christian min…

Discernment 2016

On 14 June 2016, I sent an email to one of my ministry mentors about still needing discernment regarding my call to ministry:

It’s odd the way I learn things about myself through pop culture.

In a recently reran episode of Law and Order: SVU, there was a Catholic priest who was a witness. When Stabler asked why he became a priest, the answer was, “To serve God and his church.”

That’s what I want to do: serve GOD (however I might define that word) and GOD’s church (humanity). The big question is do I pursue ordination with the PCA )Progressive Christian Alliance) as part of this.

There are practical reasons to get ordained Christian. With that certification, I can hold the title of Reverend and that could make pulpit supply possible. And as a Christian minister, I would (in theory) be able to reach a larger group of people. But at the same time, humanism has a certain appeal, too.

I’m still trying to determine if I still want you to start my ordination process with the PCA on the solstice. At this point, I’m not sure.

My mentor pointed out that as I am ordained a priest of Open Source Alexandrian Wicca, I can already take the title of Reverend. Additionally, my mentor sent me some questions in reply:

  1. Are you actually Christopagan, “just” pagan, multi-faith with something else, or “just” Christian?
  2. If you do feel you still actually are Christopagan, is Jesus calling you to be a priest for Him (aka have you asked Him yourself, or do you need to have one of us horse (chanel) Him so you can ask)?
  3. And if He is calling you to be a priest for Him, do you feel that that calling requires some sort of official human recognition?
  4. Are there any other trads, denominations, or groups that are poking you in the spirituals that maybe you should go and explore before you decide on ordination in the PCA?
  5. What type of ministry are you being really called to, and do you really need anything other than your CoC ordination for it?

So, my plan is to answer the above questions on this blog. And to preserve the Q&A format, I’ll “ask” them from my mundane Tumblr account, 2ndhalfoflife.

Our Satan

His Infernal Majesty who reigns in hell
accursed is your name.
Your adversity come, our wills be one
with yours here on this Earth.
Give us the means to divine our needs
and to present challenge to those
who would dare challenge us.
Lead us forth into reason,
and guide us from naïveté.
For thine are the margins, and the logic,
and the shadows, for ever and ever.

Fighting Back with … What

On my commute this morning (Thursday 7 July 2016), I spontaneously decided to listen to the album “Declaration” by Welsh rock band The Alarm. Toward the end of the song “Blaze of Glory,” when lines from earlier in the ballad are being repeated, some of those lines stood out in my attention.

Fight back with love! No price is too high!

Yeah, written and performed by straight white guys, albeit straight white guys from Wales in the 1980s. Historical and societal contexts shouldn’t be dismissed.

As I heard those lines, I was reflecting on the two black men killed by police in as many days. And, those are just the ones I know about. For all I know, there could be more.

Fighting back with love has been a personal philosophy of mine for a very long time, probably going back to the early ’80s when I first heard this song. This was due, in part, to the fact that back then I lacked the physical strength to fight back in any other way. As I grew older and my Christian faith deepened, fighting back with love seemed the proper way to live the Golden Rule and the second half of the Great Commandment. But with all this violent oppression happening around me, I can’t help but think that a more “Satanic” approach might indeed be appropriate.

What would that look like? Second Amendment rights seem to be respected differently depending on the person with the gun. It has been alleged that both Mr. Castile and Mr. Sterling had guns. So what? Dylan Roof used a gun to kill nine people and he was apprehended live, put in a bulletproof vest, and taken for fast food. After he killed nine people. Simply bearing arms, real or not, can get one killed when one is a person of color, particularly if that person is male. As much I as consider joining Pink Pistols, I’m not a white, seemingly cis-male queer. My chances of being shot even while legally carrying will be much greater than my white, seemingly cis-male or trans-and-passing-for-cis-male peers.

How can we fight back with more than love and live to tell the tale? No price is too high? If we die, how can we continue the fight?