[image courtesy https://wildlifewaystation.org/animals/species/peacock]
Easter Sunday, 1 April 2018
Four years ago in the early hours of Easter morning, I had a dream that I was in San Francisco and ended up in the house of Mary Magdalene. She looked like an average, middle-aged woman in a white tank-top and blue jeans. She indicated I was welcome to spend the night that night and as she took me through the house, we passed a closed bedroom door with Jesus’ name on it. “He’s not up yet,” she explained.
This year, in the wee hours of Easter morning, I dreamed that I was out walking on a roadway up and hill and around a curve. A small peacock was on the guardrail, and took flight as I got closer. The imagery was obvious to me.
It was Melek Ta’us: the Blue God, the Peacock Angel, the Peacock King.
My primary deities are almost all male: YHWH/Jesus/the Holy Spirit, Antinoüs, Melek Ta’us. I wonder at this, sometimes, as it was the Divine Feminine that really drew me to Paganism. And, I can’t help but wonder if me be transgender is part of that pull. As I move deeper into my transition, I’m find that I’m okay with the Divine Masculine that seems so prevalent in Christianity, even as I recognize that’s not the be-all-end-all of the Christian G!D.
My faith formation has been an interesting thing for me to observe of the last several years. I think I’m really beginning to understand the concept of metafaith, and that’s been crucial to me no longer attempting to reconcile my seemingly disparate faith practices. This, in turn, has led me to renewing my relationship with Christianity. Finding a faith community that’s absolutely wonderful was a significant part of that, too. That, coupled with my process of cultural reclamation as I try to return in a way to the faith I was born into, has renewed my relationship with Mary, the Mother of God, and deepen my relationship with Mary Magdalene, my matron saint.
How does all of this relate to Melek Ta’us? Well, I think it means for all his vanity, he doesn’t mind sharing me with other gods and beings.
Amen, and Blessed Be!